I'm everything I am

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

g E L a k k E t A w A

Saya tingin sgt nk bergelak ketawa ngn dia

Dah sebulan lebih dah KAMI xsemesra dulu..

ntah la

Ade je yang xkena

Pantang bercakap akan gaduh..

Xtau la nape..

Salah saya kot?Mayb jugak salah dia..

Saya xtau..

Saya tingin sgt nk bergelak ketawa ngn dia..

Macam dulu..

Ummi pesan "Jaga hubungan leklok,dua2 famly masing2 dah setuju..Jgn la asik nk gadoh je"

Tp ape yang KAMI buat?apa yang saya buat?

asik nk gadoh je..

Saya sayangkan hubungan kami,

Saya sayangkan dia..

Saya rindukan dia sgt2..

Tp saya xleh nk gelak ketawa ngn dia..

Kadang2 bile saya rindu dia,

Saya akan call dia..

Bile dia angkat, dapat dgr suara dia, saya letak fon..

Tp arini saya tingin nk gelak ketawa ngn dia..

Saya call dia, tp dia xangkat..

Dia xnak ckp ngn saya..

Byk crite saya nk cite kat dia..

dah sebulan lebih saya simpan crite tu..

tp saya xleh crite kat dia..

Saya tingin sgt nk gelak ketawa ngn dia..

b L u R r

Ya ALLAH,

Seandainya telah ENGKAU catatkan,

Dia milikku,

Tercipta buatku,

Satukan lah hatinya dgn hatiku,

Titipkanlah kebahagiaan antara kami,

Agar kemesraan itu abadi,

Ya ALLAH,

Seandainya telah ENGKAU takdirkan,

Dia bukan milikku,

Bawalah dia jauh dr pandanganku,

Peliharalah aku dr kekecewaan,

Ya ALLAH,

Dengarlah rintihan dr hambamu yang daif ini,

Jangan biarkan aku sendirian didunia dan diakhirat,

Kurniakan aku seorang pasangan yang beriman supaya

Aku dan dia sama2 dapat membina

Kesejahteraan hidup ke jalan yang ENGKAU redhai

Amin Ya Rabbal A'lamin...

AMIN...

*moga2 Dia adalah pilihan yang terbaik untukku..InsyaALLAH

t e r i m a k a s i h c h e n t a

dah 2 bulan 9 hari suda saya di'chop' oleh kamu dgn sebentuk cincin.

masam+manis+

pahit+ombak+badai = sayang kamu

infinity

terima kasih kerana sentiasa melayan semua karenah saya.

Kawen2 n3

Hurm..sejak 2 3 bulan ni ramai sgt yang kawen..lepas sorang sorang..AKU???blum tibe masanya lagi kot..InsyaALLAH, kalo ade jodoh kawen gak nnt..cume xtau lg bile...

Kami kat majlis kawen org lain...Majlis kami xtau la bile..byk lagi pic kawen org yang ain attend dalam jangka masa terdekat ni..ye la dr bln 2 ke bln 4 ni..nnt ade masa ain upload pic2 diaorang ni...

Time ni kami sama2 di pihak pengantin pompuan bertandang ke umah pengantin laki di Cheruk To'kun, BM..Merangkap kali ke 9 kali jumpe...Cume kali ni kali sempat jumpe tuk jangkamasa 4jam je..Pluang tuk ain borak ngn dia mmg sgt la terbatas..dalam brape minit je kot kami borak..

InsyaALLAH ade pluang leh la kami jumpe lagi..

Surprise from HIM

One week b4 cuti CNY..mak dia call kate nk dtg kelantan..datang Jalan2..nk kenal2 ngn famly ain..nk borak2..kami sebagai tuan rumah terima baik kedatangan diaorang..first tu mak dia kate nk datang Sabtu 13 Feb..Dr penang trus singgah umah ain..

Mula2 tu kami rancang nk balik kampung, yela kenduri byk sgt nk kena attend..So, macam xjadi la famly dia nk datang.. Sebab nk ikut ain balik kampung jauh sgt lak..so terpaksa la mak dia cancel kan rancangan nk dtg sini..tp mak dia kate tetap gak nk dtg masa cuti maulidur rasul nnt..

Terpikir gak la, nape diaorang nk sangat datang???xpe la..dalam 3 hari b4 13 Feb tu, ain gadoh2 ngn dia..dalam masa tgh dok ber"ooVoo" tu, dia cakap arini dia kena marah ngn mak dia..yela nk dtg kelantan tp satu menda xprepared lagi..

So, dia list kan la kat box chat tu, senarai what he's going to do?

: besok potong rambut

[2/10/2010 1:24:19 AM] dEaRiE hUBbY: beli cincin

[2/10/2010 1:24:24 AM] dEaRiE hUBbY: basuh baju

[2/10/2010 1:24:27 AM] dEaRiE hUBbY: basuh suar

[2/10/2010 1:24:34 AM] dEaRiE hUBbY: basuh kete

[2/10/2010 1:24:41 AM] dEaRiE hUBbY: byk nya keje

[2/10/2010 1:25:06 AM] dEaRiE hUBbY: semua nya demi u

[2/10/2010 1:28:26 AM] dEaRiE hUBbY: tapi disebabkan i seorg yg memiliki sifat penyabar tahap org alim... i rilek je..walaupun dlm hati nerves

[2/10/2010 1:28:39 AM] dEaRiE hUBbY: mak nak cop u kat i

[2/10/2010 1:28:47 AM] dEaRiE hUBbY: nak bg tanda yg u milik i

[2/10/2010 1:28:55 AM] dEaRiE hUBbY: bes nya

[2/10/2010 1:30:42 AM] dEaRiE hUBbY: ni kira merisik la ek

[2/10/2010 1:30:54 AM] dEaRiE hUBbY: tunang bulan

[2/10/2010 1:30:59 AM] dEaRiE hUBbY: 6

Surprise ape ntah yang dia bagi...hurmm...ain call umi..gtau..mula2 tu umi xnak la gtau sape2..sekadar kami satu famly dah la..tp bile dah disebut MERISIK.. Xpatut la rasenya kalo nenek ain xtau..dah la ain ni cucu sulung...At least nenek ain kena gak tau..Ari Kamis ain balik umah, nenek ain call..dia cakap,bli la pape tuk pihak laki sebagai balasan menghargai..Ari Jumaat tu ain kuar la ngn adik ain p bli barang..Umi suh bli kain tuk wat baju melayu..so, ain blila..tuk tunang nnt..senang..

Ari Jumaat tu gak la nenek ain datang umah..Kebetulan lak ari sabtu 13 Feb tu, sepupu ain tunang kat Machang...so, ramai la yang berkumpul kt umah kami..Lebih kurang jam 1tghri, Grand Livina yang dipandu oleh En Norfizual tu tibe di perkarangan umah ain..

Sampai2 je, diaorang borak2 biasa...Pastu makan...lepas makan tu, bermula la majlis..bincang2 n sarung cincin..tp xde pic sbb masing2 blurrrr...

13 February 2010...Ain telah dirisik..xsangka hubungan KAMI dah hampir KE SITU...sangat la xsangka..AIN dah pre-officially jd milik, Jiwang..Yang dulunya ain knal melalui mIRC...Kecik tul dunia...

7th date

Setahun kitaorg couple..kali ni kali ke-7 kitaorg jumpe..Tp kali ni lain dr yang lain..Jumpe pun kat tempat yang sangat spesel..KPJ Penang Specialist Hospital..Pada mulanya dia skadar demam biasa..batuk2... Beberapa hari b4 dia admit kitaorg gadoh..puas aku bebel suh dia p cek kt hospital ape sakit dia..tp dia malas, dia ckap nnt2 la..dia mmg suke tangguh2..Sepanjang dia xsehat tu..kami xsalu contact..Tp ptg 12 Jan, aku dapat mms dr dia..tgk je gambar tu,trus airmata aku jatuh..dgn sgt laju..org 1st aku call umi aku..crite pasal dia..Lps tu aku call abg dia ty..Wana kata abg dia ade call mintak no fon aku, tu yang aku trus call abg dia..abg dia ckp..paru2 dia problem..kena transfer ke IJN..sgt la aku terkejut..Knape sume ni jadi pada dia??

Bile aku sms dia tanya, dia ckp, Dr kate paru2 dia dah xleh nk watpe dah, cume tunggu penderma je..sbb paru2 dia dh rosak..Tak tau la stakat mana kebenaran ckp DR tu..14hb pg, Khamis..aku amik keputusan tuk p Penang, p melawat dia..Aku amik bas pagi dr sini..Sampai sana dlm kul 3..Kak dia dtg amik trus bwk ke hospital..sampai je kt hosp saya sedih je tgk diri dia..Tp dia tabah, masih lagi mampu tersenyum...

Malam tu aku jaga dia kt hosp, aku akui aku ngntok sgt..Tp memandangkan keadaan dia yang cmtu,aku try gagahkan mata aku..tp xberdaya...aku tertdo jugak dlm sejam..Tp tdo aku xdela lena sgt memndangkan asyik dgr bunyi (wheezing) semasa dia bernafas..bile ditanya, dia ckp dia ok..Tp melihat pada pernafasan dia..terasa penat sgt dia bernafas..aku jadi takot nk tdo..

Chest Physiotherapy (CPT).. At least 2x sehari dia kena wat CPT tuk kuarkan kahak...Makin lama, kahak dia makin cair...Alhamdulillah,setelah 3hari dia dikatil yang begitu selesa tu, dia dah boleh kuar..Gembira sgt bile dapat tau dia dah boleh kuar, tp sedih sgt bile ditanya pd Dr tetap jwpan yang sama.."Kena refer ke IPR/IJN..kena buat lung transplant..Paru2 dia dah berparut..Teruk..Dr S tu diagnos dia as BRONCHIECTASIS severe infection". Pasal blood test, sputum test langsung DR tu xcrite...At last, kitaorg mintak salinan result for those test..Sputum smear test-normal..Culture under 48hrs pun normal..Kalo ikut blood test, increased in WBC, neutrophil, monocyte and ikut dgn ape yang aku baca dlm Eunice textbook General hematology, sume tu mungkin kerana bacterial infection..Tp bacterial ape???Ape yang menyebabkan DR S, PAKAR CARDIOLOGY tu ckp patients ni kena BRONCHIECTASIS??

Blurrr.........

Hope sgt dia akan ok lepas ni..Hope sgt...